53 days 

Logged into MyFitnessPal, every day staying within a certain calorie range. Portion control. Accountability in several places. Here, MyFitnessPal, Facebook groups, so far it’s all helping. Well honestly it’s more of the I might have a cancerous cyst on my left ovary that’s really been pushing me to change. This is so sad to even admit but if that weren’t a factor I may not be trying as hard but there are factors as to why my ump isn’t anywhere where it needs to be really.

Additionally, I’ve just been battling exhaustion, body aches, etc. Whatever this all is my body has had enough. My mind has also. I recently cut out dairy and it has made a world of difference in the way I feel and what I can accomplish daily. I am hoping with some effort that when I go in for another ultrasound that nasty/ abnormal looking cyst is gone. 

If not I’ll just continue on my journey and share here. I’ve managed to stay active daily and hopefully can exercise more. I actually need to make another doctors appointment just to discuss general issues and see what he says. I’m slow to jump on issues because it’s always been a “if it’s not broken, bleeding and you’re not dying” type attitude. 

Take note this is not a good attitude to have. Especially when you have endometriosis, PCOS, and an ugly cyst that could potentially be bad. Everywhere I read, whether it’s news,articles or personal experiences. I see women saying they are not taken seriously when they go into the doctor. I’ve always felt this way it took five years for me to find a doctor that sprung into action to get the official diagnosis for endometriosis. 

Right now I have a pretty good doctor as well-thankfully-I’m picturing the look of concern on his face when he read my ultrasound report. I’m in good hands I dare say. 

Anyway just a check in that may have been me rehashing all that emotional crap of oh crap! This cyst is not normal! 

Anyway over and out… 

Alexis  

Yesterday….

I’ve been sick since Sunday with something some symptoms says sinus infection others say cold. Thinking allergies/ sinus issues being the ultimate culprit. Really driving me nuts though because I just want to feel like doing stuff and I want to sleep. You cannot sleep with a three year old around unless you convince her a nap is a good idea which only happens every so often these days. 

We do get quiet time but of course it is not the same. Anyway yesterday felt like the worst of the sickies. I missed classes Monday and Tuesday. Not my favorite choice but hopefully this evening I’ll feel up to it and can take this math test of mine (super nervous). 

I hate when my body gets sick… I was just about to pose the question does anyone else hate getting sick oh silly sickie head me of course y’all do! 

I don’t even know where I was going with this post. Haha! I think I going over yesterday, being sick always puts a kink in the plans to do other things today I’m not as foggy in the head and I’m going to concentrate on coursework and detox while I’m sick I know it almost sounds counter inituive. But it helps I’ll do a day with some detox tea, my vegan protein shake, and lots of veggies, no meat and it kick starts my system to fight off the nasties. 

Actually on that note I’m seriously considering a vegan diet because when you start to compare endo and PCOS. It may be the best option to stave off the issues and help both conditions. 

On another note I’m finding my cycles to be weird little beasties. I won’t have my usual endo pain until a few days before- usually severe cramps now it’s mostly just bowel and bladder issues, I’m often seriously late like 25 or more days. But when my menses begin oh I feel that endo wrath like never before! The only thing that stays true blue is endo belly. It’s there, it makes me angry, and it can just go away! It’s how I know my cycle is getting close to starting. 

I’m also not likely the bit of belly hair and rough hairs on the chin they are very minimal so for that I’m thankful but it’s something weird to contend with. 

Anyway! So yesterday was bunk but today is going to my biatch… Because I just need it to be so I can get to feeling better. 

Alexis 

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Just a check in…fluctuated in weight was 235 back down to 232. Cut out dairy completely and feeling better. Allergies and sinuses acting up but tis the season all that pollen and blooms is evil! At least it brings pretty spring. 

Working on when to take supplements. Seems magnesium may be one to take at night. Finding supplements without soy… Interesting to say the least. 

Update on my health: 

Doctor is thinking  mild PCOS, will just continue to watch my cycle closely. I also have an ovarian cyst that doesn’t look like the norm. So I will be going back in, in May to have it checked out again. If it’s still there or bigger- biopse time. 

Soliditary fist bump to my endo and PCOS sisters or any woman out there struggling with  female issue because this crap is real, it’s scary, heartbreaking, painful, and not fun. 

In the meantime, cracking down on my diet like a mad woman. Gotta get this body healthy. Whatever it decides to throw at me I’m prepared. 

Alexis